This is for the first time I am feeling nervous before an interview. Not because I never faced one, but because I have failed far many times than I have actually succeeded. This time I am tensed- what if I fail to deliver answers up to the jury’s satisfaction; what if I am again left without a job, and for how long need I wait till I apply for another.
But my primary cause for being this nervous is because the mail which I have received is from someone I never thought I would receive an email. He belongs to the class of elite intellectuals. I got my Commonwealth research fellow in the year 2020 when pandemic struck, when things seemed so desperate I received another offer letter from Arthur Carter Institute of Journalism, New York University and the recent one was from Harvard University where I was shortlisted for a workshop on misinformation and fake news. My failures leave me with so much of disappointment that I feel I am not good enough for the current generation and its work structure. But these little conquests leads me to reflect over my disapproved thoughts.
Coming to over more positive thoughts that I especially need to nurture. In case I clear the interview, I will be in a place that I fell in love with when I visited it for the first time in 2019. I would love to begin my work in such a place and most importantly I have a pre-assumed belief that this work will give me a satisfaction that probably no job had brought to me previously.
Securing a job in a place you like, have work friendly colleagues is difficult if not tough. But I have maintained an all neutral zone in all of my previous workplaces I had worked. Workplace environment, good peers, team work, work recreation and leisure are few things that determine one’s work life. If one finds these factors mixed together in proper proportions then it brings joys to work life else it becomes just another job we work to earn a living and not for satisfaction. I promise that I will return to the blog if I secure this position-if not I will definitely write over something very mundane and fragile.
Till then, ciao :)
